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Post by whitzendJane on Thu May 05, 2011 10:00 am

After going stir crazy looking after 2 fractious children and one temperamental male I desperately seized the opportunity to go out tonight. Only problem was I had to go alone and drive myself there.

OK, I thought ...I had done this journey tonnes of times and as long as I get home before dark (I have reverse vampire syndrome and have to be in before nightfall as my night vision is ..erm..I think 'crap' is the technical term) I will be fine.

So the intrepid escapee puts 2 dogs in the car and sets, out giddy with the heady sense of relief that only a child free evening can bring.

5 mins away from the meeting point brain fog decends and I get completely lost. Yes I had my satnav, yes I managed to put it on and 'posh woman' was directing me BUT I still couldn't make head nor tail of how to get there. As I glanced in the rear mirror saw the look of terror on the dogs faces 'are you sure you're allowed out alone' they seemed to be thinking..I was no longer sure myself.
To make matters worse, embarrassment and panic were taking a hold , so the brain fog was rapidly turning into a pea souper.

Brian and friends alerted by my lateness were ringing now all worried..'where are you Jane?'..Me: 'Erm I can't tell you'. That's the odd thing I did recognize where I was but couldn't explain it to them or remember the place names. I felt such a fool.

Anyway me and the dogs had a bit of a chat and I consoled myself that if all else failed I could be traced via my mobile GPS Smile .

I had one more attempt and BINGO, I found my friends and although I cried and was embarrassed I did get there eventually clown DING DONG. We had a nice time and then I drove back home before the dreaded darkness. I had no trouble finding my way home at all..this illness is so weird sometimes..HOWEVER..I am going to keep trying as despite the issues I did feel a great sense of achievement at making it out alone without spontaneously combusting.

**Raises fist in air and blows a huge raspberry at dodgy neurons** tongue

Over and out troops.
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Post by Sarah on Thu May 05, 2011 11:18 pm

That's really scary. Sad I have a huge fear of that happening when I'm on my own and have to get myself home. Good for you for not letting it stop you from trying again, plus hopefully having a good time made it all worthwhile.

I'm awwing at the idea of you and the dogs having a chat. Smile What sort are they? I'll blame my own brain fog if you're already said!!
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Post by whitzendJane on Fri May 06, 2011 12:04 am

Ah I love to talk about my dogs so am glad you asked Sarah.

I have 2 rescue dogs, one is a collie cross (toffee coloured..called Fudge) the other is we think a Mastiff cross..maybe with a ridgeback or rotwieller. She looks like a giant Staffie with long legs and is a big soft lump called Piggle. Fudge has anxiety issues so we take him out to socialise him.

I have had lots of times where this has happened to me but I a trying to overcome my fears as the fear makes it worse. I know that it will keep on happening but I can change how I react to it when it does. And despite being frustrated this time I wasn't as scared and I had people who knew roughly where I was who could come and get me..so it was a controlled situation to some extent 'gulp' Smile

I once 'got lost' on a train and ended up in a right state Suspect I know I can't beat my illness but I have some control over my panic...it's taken me a long time to attempt something like this and I nearly turned round 3 times shortly after setting out but I am more pleased than anxious about it today and I feel it's a success from that point of view.

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Post by Sarah on Fri May 06, 2011 2:23 am

Your dogs sound gorgeous. I love all animals (hence my avatar!! Wink) I only tend to have small animals, but my parents have just got a new dog, which I'm thrilled about.

You are so right that you can control how you react to it. I need to stop being so afraid - my biggest fear is always having an aura start when I'm round the shops etc (has happened several times).

I must confess, I'm so pleased to hear you say you got lost on a train! I was once with my husband on a train with a migraine. I went off to find the toilets and then just couldn't remember which direction I needed to go in! I ended up just sitting down and meeting him at our stop! It was before the days of mobile phones. To this day he laughs about the fact that I could get lost on a train.
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Post by Tee on Fri May 06, 2011 8:13 am

Jane - You are totally priceless and I am sorry I had to laugh Smile

I can just imagine you there talking to the dogs and them looking at you - saying "btw you know these collars we have on, with our name and phone number - you need one Wink"

BUT you did IT cheers cheers (thats a mexican wave) This is a bubble bee story and we ALL need bubble bee stories.......... we might all be a little foggy once in a while, but we can still do it..... well done you xx
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Post by Tee on Fri May 06, 2011 8:15 am

Sarah - I love that we are all so ill, yet we all can smile at ourselves Smile

Its damn scary going to new places knowing that aura can kick in at any moment - that's the reason why I hold my husbands hand and NEVER let go.... I am such a kid when we go out lol
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Post by whitzendJane on Fri May 06, 2011 8:30 am

Sarah it has taken me 4 years and loads of mistakes to even attempt this type of thing so please don't be hard on yourself.
I did try 2 more train journeys on my own after the 'lost' one but it was very traumatic and I realise I cannot do anything but direct routes..changing at stations..arrrhhh. I even got assistance at the platform where they took me to where I had to catch my connection and I went into a daze and still nearly missed my train. It was all a blank Smile I got lost on the train and couldn't find my booked seat..some poor chap took pity on me and lead me to my place in the end. By the time I sat down I may as well had walked all the bloody way to Reading..up and down the corridor all hot, sweaty and making a strange whimpering noises.. Rolling Eyes

Tracey you know me so well and laughing at myself helps lol! If I made you laugh too then my work here is done.
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Post by JACQUELINE TEW on Mon Jun 13, 2011 10:14 pm

I am laughing and crying at the same time i know this one so well lol ,i`m famous for circling roundabouts several times before i remember exit and thats just the one thats 1/2 mile from my house ,it causes great hilarity ,i have cried in layby`s with frustration but then nearly wet mysely laughing talking about it later ,thankyou this made me laugh today Thank you xx
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Post by whitzendJane on Mon Jun 13, 2011 10:18 pm

I am so glad..I have a 40min car drive (ALONE) tomorrow for a medical..I am really anxious already..but knowing I am not alone really helps.

Do you ever know where you are meant to be going but just seem completely unable to make the turn/decision to do it?

I also just put the waffle maker in the freezer..DOH


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Post by JACQUELINE TEW on Tue Jun 14, 2011 8:32 am

Yes there with you on the decision inability did that only last friday idiot that i am ,i do get frustrated with myself and end up in tears in a layby somewhere ,but then i giggle at myself later ,they should make a sitcom about us lot ,my lot often burst into fits around me basically because i have said things completely back to front or in the midst of doing something totally bizarre ,like emptying the waste paper basket into the tumble dryer for instance (theres no hope is there ) ,i like to think i make life amusing and intersting for them anyway Laughing Jacqui xx
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